Wouldn’t you like a little wiggle room in your posting schedule for your blog?  Then the Blog Ahead event hosted by Anna of Herding Cats & Burning Soup is perfect for you.

From May 1 – 15, 2016 there is a challenge to write up blog posts for the future, to give yourself a break and just get a little bit ahead.  Some breathing room so to speak.  The goal is 15 additional posts during the event, that’s just one extra post per day (or you could decide your own number) – but the point is to do it, even make it a habit so that when life happens (and it always does) you’re prepared with posts that will pop onto your blog even though you’re nowhere around at the moment.

Last Blog Ahead I had gotten several weeks ahead and was breezing along just fine – then a sudden house move and knee surgery… and I was back at square one.  So I’ve got some catching up to do come May – but that’s okay, by then I’ll be physically able to sit at the computer for the time I’ll need to get ahead again.

There’s still plenty of time to think about it and plan what you might blog ahead about — but in the meantime, head on over to Anna’s and check out her Sign Up Post right here.  I think you’ll be glad you did.

In a couple hours I’m going to be offline for a while – not exactly sure just how long.  See at this time tomorrow I’ll be in an operating room having my right knee replaced.  So kinda hard to get reviews up when that’s happening.  *trying for ironic humor here :)*

Wish I could say I’m being all brave and happy about this – I’m not.  I am scared, more scared than I can ever remember being… and I’ve had some scary moments in my life.  And it’s not a fear for myself, what is to be will be I’ve long ago accepted that in my life.  It’s for that kid of mine – the 35 year old young man who is such an amazing person – even when a disease has kept him in a wheelchair and dependent on a ventilator for his every breath… he’s still an upbeat, amazing kid of mine.  But I’ve always been there in the forefront and now in the background, his safety net so to speak – so this surgery, though totally necessary, is frightening for us both for perhaps different reasons.  I can already imagine the guilt for me when he needs something that I (for the moment) simply cannot do.  Or should there be complication to the surgery… hey, it happens there are no guarantees in life.

But there comes a time when a person simply has to take care of them first – even when it goes against every instinct.  Today I am in a level 9 on the 1 -10 pain level the doctors ask about.  It’s been that way, with spikes higher, consistently for two years now… I cannot do it any longer.  That level of pain is slowly wearing me down to the point of barely functioning.

Yes, the pain of the next few weeks will likely make that seem like a stroll in the park – but down the line, in a couple months, if I do what I need to do – then I can be almost pain free and get back to living life, doing what I need to do and those things that I want to do – like planting a garden, getting a puppy and taking long, energetic walks through the woods that border our back yard.  Simple things but things I want to do again.

So for the rest of today I’ll be getting my home in order, last minute trips to the grocery story – all those things that you do when you don’t really know what is coming but you’d better be prepared.  And trying not to overthink – trying to find that calm place where I can just go with the flow and hope for the best outcome.

Yep I’m scared… but determined.

See ya all when I can get back online and back to the stories that I love to tell you about.